now i know what a hangover must feel like

oh man. this time i'm feeling pretty different than last time. this little embryo is working me hard. i have bought my first bottle of tums and have had to unclog the sink more than once (gross!). seems i get evening sickness. brushing my teeth is the worst and that's the big trigger. chris has been great. he continues to smile at how disgusting i am and tries not to laugh, but he's supportive and brings me a wet cloth to help me clean myself up. we're 3 weeks away from our first appointment. i'm ready for the dr. to tell us 'everything looks great!' and send us on our way to keep growing. it has been great having several days off for thanksgiving and having chris here taking such good care of me. i'm nervous about work this week. it's going to be a busy one and i'm concerned about not feeling well in front of other people and not being able to cover it up. laura comes in on tuesday. i'm thinking i might tell her since i've been using the guest bathroom for my episodes. we'll see how it goes. my meal of choice lately: a bowl of special K with banana (or 2 bowls).
my body is doing all sorts of its own things and i'm hoping that's all a good (actually great) sign. i have acupuncture again tomorrow, yah & phew!
dear baby - we're almost at 9 weeks. you should be ruling your environment in there by the way i'm feeling out here. good work, little one! we're having fun talking about how we want to tell our families about you.

purple toenails

it has been just over a week since we found out. still doesn't seem real. we definitely want it to be real, but i think we are still a bit guarded. i went to my 'fertility' appointment on monday and was greeted by the cranky intake nurse who was annoyed that i didn't cancel my appointment. i was directed to the ob/gyn desk so that i could fill out all of the prenatal registry paperwork. they tested me there (which was a production in itself - have you ever had to pee in a cup then pour some in a tube before you turn it into the lab? well, just be careful you don't accidentally trigger the motion sensored faucet and end up adding a bunch of water to your sample tube. i'm glad there aren't any hidden cameras in the bathroom). well, my purple toenails are official! that's my joke with chris about there being a no doubt sign that you are pregnant without all this guessing . . . why can't your toenails just turn purple once you conceive? doesn't that sounds much simpler?
i do have an appt with christine (our midwife from the summer), but it's not until december 18th. seems so far away. we'll be 11 weeks then. better keep praying.
several of my sweet friends have been calling in to check on my appt. it's hard not to tell them the real story. sorry, friends - i don't mean keep this fabulous news from you, we're just trying to wait this time.
laura & baby clara are going to be here in 2 weeks. that's going to be a huge challenge.
starting to feel a bit icky with food and all these bubbles that build up in the evening. that's a good sign though. i'll take it. bring it on, baby!
i updated my profile on thebump.com yesterday. according to their calculator, we are due on july 8th, 2010! let's just say sometime in july. i also checked out their chinese calendar gender calculator. it's based on the month of conception and how old you were that month. it says we're going to have a boy. hmm . . it hasn't sunk in yet how much i'm going to miss chris once baby arrives. we'll just have to address that later. i'm sure there will be several posts about it.
dear baby - i have an acupuncture appointment in the morning. i hope it helps you to be nourished and protected. in 4 1/2 weeks we'll hopefully be meeting you for the first time on the ultrasound screen. keep up the strong mitosis! we love you.

yahtzee (muggy's selection)

i woke up early this morning & had to pee, so i decided to go ahead and take a test. sitting there with my heart racing, it finally stopped blinking and said . . . . . . pregnant!! only one word this time? really? i closed my eyes for a second and looked again. still only one word! hooray hooray!
i jumped back in bed & told chris. this was a lot of excitement for 3am. it sure was hard to fall back asleep.
i had my 3rd acupuncture appointment this morning. i was really looking forward to telling leng. she screamed! just what i needed - another girl to be super excited for me. my appointment was great and she gave me a new ear seed on a calming spot. we're calling it my worry seed :)
now we wait. we've decided not to tell anyone until after the 1st of the year. we'll continue to pray and take good care of ourselves. chris said tonight he'll start chatting with my tummy again.
so, here we go!

dear baby - please stay strong. we are praying for you & have been for a long time. i will do everything i can to make sure you are nourished & protected. we love you!